Every day that I don't blog it becomes that much harder to write. ;)
I've been busy. And sick. And busy. Repeated because... BUSY. You know, normal life. But I thought the beginning of 2013 was going to be a little smoother.
Eh.
It's been three months since my mom's cancer diagnosis. Unfortunately the recent blood tests confirmed that she has the aggressive form of CLL (positive for Zap-70). She's been cheery in her outlook. I'm not sure if that's for our benefit, or what. She's juicing and talking about becoming a vegan. *grin*
I can't say that I've taken the news well.
My dad has his health issues too. He seems to take some sort of perverse joy in Instagraming his blood/iron transfusions. *blink*
Anyway. This changes my life in many ways.
My husband who loves his sugar (WAY TOO MUCH for his almost-40 body), was sitting in bed at 10pm or so swigging a Coke and eating peach rings. I sort of lost it. I told him that his body is going to shut down from all the crap he puts into it. I ended with, "And you're MY PERSON. I'm losing everyone and I can't lose you." Then I cried.
Yeah.
He was good about it. He always is. :)
I've also noticed that since that discussion his sugar habits have been hidden from me. LOL! I'm not naive to think they've stopped. He's just not giving me the opportunity to freak out again. Or maybe it was the threat I made to transition our family to veganism. haha.
We've also started talking about retirement. Honestly, I'm done with this lifestyle. I've given up way too many days/weeks/months/years to support a government who thinks nothing of cutting our funding when they can't meet a budget negotiation. It's not as if military members are the working class poor, or that they sacrifice their lives, families and autonomy... oh, wait, they do? Uh, huh. Yeah, so that's totally fair.
...Sorry, got off on a tangent...
What I meant to say is that retirement will be a blessing. I'm ready to be closer to home. There's only so much time and I don't want to waste any of it.
We're with you...and your mom...and your family. Gotta grab all the moments, all the time. I'm sure there's a meme in there somewhere.
ReplyDeleteAw, here's some useless internet hugs to you. I understand where you're coming from. I hope you guys are able to settle down closer to your family. :)
ReplyDeleteYay for retirement!
ReplyDeleteCan't wait till you guys live in the same state as us.
I don't know what to say about your mom's illness...I've read your post several times, but couldn't respond until now, because I'd start crying each time. Your mom is such a great lady. I've made no secret of the fact, she is my favorite of the sisters...actually, maybe don't tell my mother-in-law that last part.
*Hugs*
ReplyDeletelol hubs will say he's on a diet but then he will sneak something on the way to or home from work. His mistake is throwing the bag from said sneak in the trash can at home. If he's going to go to all the trouble to deny he snitched on his diet why does he put the evidence in the home trash throw it out somewhere else.
ReplyDeleteWe're changing our eating too. I've been reading non-stop & the processed foods, red meats, candy, sugar are out (well as much as I can do at the moment).
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